"i'm jealous because your heart is much more beautiful than i am."it's a lie. i am not "beautiful" so please don't split and separate things based on something. such as "beauty" then distance yourself. if you said that i am beautiful, then you are also beautiful. crying about how lonely and scared you were, it was nearly painful. how innocent and pure you were. i am someone who tried to break apart the world that you were hoping for. it doesn't matter if it was wrong or right. it doesn't change the fact that you were hurt so badly. but still-
leaving is sad
so sad
things like "partings are the beginning of meeting"
and "when there are endings, there are beginnings"
right now
i don't wanna hear those kind of worn-out words
in its own way
this is really somewhat sad
please cry with me
if nothing can be done
then for now
i want us to cry at least together
my whole body feels like it is crying out
like it is blaming me
for losing that it held
and not having one guarantee
the fear of living in the world once more
with just a small bit of hope as support
at least
cry
cry
cry
i want to cry
like the day i was first born into the world
you said believing in "meetings" and "beginnings"
from now on was not too late
and you smiled
since when did it become a "curse"?
since when did it become a "burden"?
when everyone was happy
and struggled to part
love should have been there
time has gone by
and people have changed
and it became something that has made people suffer
i'm sorry
i'm very sorry
but
there is something i want to say to you
to keep the promise
although it's not the promise that was originally made
to all those who kept it
what i most,
most want to say to you is
thank you
prisckha aka mica wishhed*
5:55 AM
