first, thank you to everyone, everything to you.
it's all so beautiful.
there are so many wonderful things in this world.
so very many. i'm so thankful for them all.
my body, my senses. they are so light.
everything feels so faint but the weight of living is all that I'm feeling.
i can feel it so clearly.
heavy, heavy, living is so heavy.
i'm not angry. i feel so alone. but there was nothing i could do.
"i'll struggle", "i'll think".
i decided to have every bit of myself struggle forward without any regrets.
one year. i asked God. i asked God to let me be free for just one year.
somehow, some way i wanted to live my life without any regrets.
one year, i decided that after year. i would lose all those thoughts and ideas.
but i promised one thing. i promised i wouldn't fall in love with you.
but i couldn't keep that promise.
just looking, it's what i had decided. but i couldn't do it.
you should know.
i love you. i love you more than anything in the world.
i love your smile, it brings me the most happiness in life.
i love the way you talk, it echos me from the bottom of my heart.
i love the way you cry, it makes me want to protect you that much more.
i love the way you sulk, it makes me notice my mistakes.
there's no one that i'm more connected to in this whole world. no one.
you're a bit careless and sometimes a bit selfish but with all of that together. i love you.
you're completely pure. that's every thing i think about you.
the one whose touch i want to feel the most.
even if you know i'm hurt.
even if you're scared.
even if you're already someone's now.
please don't hide from me.
please believe in me through it all.
it will put me ease. i love you. i love you. i love you.
prisckha aka mica wishhed*
4:08 AM
